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Jan
14Asking For Help
My name is Dee. I'm 32 years old. I have a 12 year old son and a 10 year old daughter. I have been with their dad for 15 years. I'm saddened to say that I am a crystal meth user. I use it every day, both me and my boyfriend use crystal meth on a daily basis. I came to a realization that it has now controlled our lives. I cannot function if I don't use it. I am so tired of it; I hate myself for doing this. I look at my kids and think to myself, how sad it is for them because they have no idea that their mom is on crystal meth. All of their lives, I've been high, if not every day almost every day. I am so sick of this, but it is so hard to quit. I love my children to death and all I'm doing is hurting myself,. I trying to pretend I live a normal life (drug free) but in reality I'm not. Every day before I go to work I have to smoke some, too get me going. While I'm at work I fool everyone, coworkers think I a drug free person. When I get home again I have to smoke a little more. This goes on, on a daily basis, I ignore my kids so much, that my son is not doing good in school. The reason for me writing this is because I admit I want to stop, but yet I am embarrassed to let family, coworkers know that I have a drug problem. Someone please let me know what to do... I am begging for help. I don't want to use no more, but I just can't stop.
Dee
