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Feb
06My Number One Frind is My Biggest Enemy
I started off by smoking weed at the age of 12. I told myself that was it that's the only drug I'll do. Then at the age of fourteen my buddy tells me about this drug (Meth) that gives you a feeling that can't be explained. "It's the best" he says. I thought this was a drug that I couldn't pass up. So we go over to a buddy's house and they start feeding me hoots. I felt great. The sensation was better than happiness. So I thought. I wasn't able to get it on a regular basis at that time so it was here and there that I did it.
When I was nearly 16 I started doing more and more, until my money was gone. When I turned 16, I did it on a regular basis. I had a dealer that would hook me up with fat deals. My life started to change I started to change. All the friends I had left. My parent's trust wasn't there. But guess what? I didn't give a fuck. Fuck them I said. Looked at my pipe and said "you'll be my friend". At the time it was. I started hanging out with my dealer, we were torqueing buddies. I was tweaked all the time. At night I stayed up thinking disturbing thoughts. I wasn't myself. I wasn't anything at all. Not worth a thing. So I kept torqueing.
I hit bottom when on a binge. After a couple sleepless nights without any food, I decided to go to a buddies' house. While I was hitching up there I started feeling terrible pains in my stomach. It was hard to walk. I started to hyperventilate, crying and passing out at the same time. A lady pulls over to see if I was alright and offered me a ride to where ever I needed to go. I ended up at my buddies' house smoking Jib that night. I then went to stay at my mom's house a week later. That is when I met my best friend / girlfriend. Who knows what I'm into? I haven't done meth since going to my mom's house but I'm back in my town and guess what? I'm still not using. My girlfriend helped me when no one else could.
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